san_buntai | To Erland Eusebius and Vidya Eusebius:

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I'll be coming over tomorrow morning, just so you're aware.

....Thank you once more, for letting me stay. |\

.........

...she shot me. In the side. ...ironically with something I had her make for her own defense.

...she's... ...I think I put too much burden upon her. I... wanted her to know everything about me. Keep no secrets, no matter what. ...I think... she just... couldn't understand... and she became so scared that she just... couldn't handle it.

...after she shot me, she couldn't hardly move... so she took one of Saiga's pills... ...I trust you know about those?

They also suppress emotions and, honestly, rational thought.

...yes. It's very troublesome. ...I WANT to be mad at her, but I can't help but feel this is more my own fault.

...just so you know, helping Vidya will probably involve tying her up until the drug works its way out of her system.

...what do you think? What should I do?

...I'll do it then. Better I be in the potential line of fire anyway. ...but I might need your help for a few days afterwards. I'll probably be too exhausted to move.

...I could have avoided it. I took a risk that she wouldn't do it, even if I pressured her. ...obviously, I lost.

...thanks, Umu.

....

Vidya... has been very good to try and put up with me, no matter what I do, until now.

...what do you think would happen to her, if I just let her go?

...like what?

...I don't think I will, but... I'd still like to know.

Was, yes.

...So... I can't really give up on her, even if I wanted to. It'd basically be a death sentence.

...I'm still around. It doesn't seem fair to do that to her.

...think you can help teach her how to behave properly? Obviously I haven't done a very good job thus far.

Once she's off the pills she should get much more to herself. ...I honestly wanted to teach her a bit of a lesson with this... but thanks to the pills I can't really do that after all.

I'll... figure out some way to find and disarm her, then I can tie her up... and probably have Xi take us both to my room, assuming she's not still there.

...I'll probably need you to keep an eye on Vidya, and maybe get food and water for both of us, until I can recover enough to move around... again.